This week has been rough. Depression hit pretty hard and I didn’t go outside for three days - the fact that it’s warm outside really isn’t helping and the lack of routine has really been getting me down. I know I’m partially to blame - I said I’d make a plan and I haven’t. The days are so long and I wake up every morning and can’t wait to go the fuck to sleep.
Screw this. I’m not going to sit around for the rest of the holidays, letting things get worse. I knew this would happen if I didn’t have routine, if I didn’t set goals, if I didn’t leave the house. So fuck this. Starting now, I’m going to start trying. I’m going to make a plan, get up before noon, eat well and sort things out.
Yes, I struggle in Summer and things are going to be tough. But I can’t give up so easily. I’m going to try and record the next few weeks as much I can for you guys, so, hopefully, I’ll stay motivated. Obviously I’m going to have shitty days and I’m not going to hide those either. But get ready for some proper challenges and some real progress. ☀️
My Etsy is open for another day as I’m trying to get rid of last stock!! Everything is 10% off on my Etsy until tonight when I officially close (for definite this time!) ☁️🌈
Posted at: 2019-07-20 15:54:21
Your story is a brave story. It’s a growth story. It’s a healing story. It’s a learning and forgiving yourself story. And your story is far from over. ♥️
Posted at: 2019-07-20 18:11:24
Überbackene Ofenkartoffel mit Kräuterquark und gebratenen Gemüsestreifen. Zum Nachtisch gab es rote Grütze.
Niemand hat gesagt,dass der Weg einfach zu gehen wird und es wäre auf ziemlich komisch wenn es einfach wäre. Doch den Weg zu gehen ist nicht unmöglich. Vlt muss man am Anfang viel aufbringen wie Kraft und Kampfgeist ,doch mit der Zeit wird es einfacher.
Es wird einfacher mit den Gedanken umzugehen,das Essen zu genießen und sich selbst zu akzeptieren. So viele Dinge werden sich ins positive verändern...
Ja jeder Anfang ist schwer,aber es ich machbar.
Es ist in Ordnung Tränen freien lauf zu lassen oder sich am Anfang schuldig zu fühlen. Was zählt ist nicht aufzugeben.
In der Anorexie spielt es oft eine Rolle 100% zu geben oder man kann es lassen!
Wieso überträgt man den Gedanken nicht einfach ? Gib 100% auf deinem recover Weg und ich kann euch eins auch jetzt schon sagen jede Träne die geflossen ist ,jede Challange die ich gemeistert habe und die ganze Kraft die ich in meinen Weg gesteckt habe ,hat sich gelohnt.
Ich merke jetzt schon wie ich Tag für Tag mein Leben mehr wahr nehmen kann und vorallem genießen kann. Bei diesem Kampf kann man nur gewinnen und das eine Menge!Wer nicht kämpft ,der verliert ein kostbares Leben.
Ein für mich sehr passender Spruch ist dazu : “𝒟𝓊 𝓂𝓊𝓈𝓈𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝒾𝓃 ä𝓃𝒹𝑒𝓇𝓃 𝓁𝑒𝒷𝑒𝓃!” #recovery#recoveryfood #recoverywin #recoveryjourney #recovering#recoverysayings #recoverywarrior #recoverywarriors #recoveryrun #recoveryispossible #recoveryrocks #mentalillnessrecovery#anorexianervosarecovery#anorexiafight#anorexiarecover
Posted at: 2019-07-20 17:09:57
just poppin’ in to share this vegan cookie dough brownie from @mscupcakeuk which unfortunately didn’t taste as nice as it looks but OH WELL 🤷🏽♀️
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These are some of the exercises that I try to do everyday at a MINIMUM for range of motion. I also do quad and hamstring flexes as warm up to make sure they stay awake and are engaged during my PT. I do feel some weird pain and tugging after 90 degrees of bending but every week it does get better. Im able to lift my knee up now which is great news because it allows me to walk with less of a limp. I still have to pistol squat to lay down but thats not a bad thing🤪
I still am VERY cautious and stop if I feel its too much but so far I do feel better. I ice right after my PT which sometimes stiffens me up but I see ortho next week and hope to hear good things!💪🏼🔧
You can be cool on the internet but don’t forget you’re in front of a janky dillards w/ bird doo doo on your windshield so stay humble baby girl
Posted at: 2019-07-20 21:32:07
An open letter to a detective I don't know.
Dear Sir or Ma'am,
Let me start off by saying I send you gratitude for the work you do and I can't imagine the things you have to witness or forge through to find answers or truth. I don't want to discredit the work you do or the gratitude I send to you, however I want you to know that your words are strong. You see, my mom decided to willfully end her life about six years ago. She was sick with the DIS-EASE of addiction, and yes that led her to be in the place you found her, the living conditions you labeled as "completely squalor". I can't imagine what it's like to get called to the scene of a death that was in dismay. I can't imagine what it's like to be desensitized to the truth that this person is still human. Did you know my mom, Carol was an artist? A lovely painter, so skillful and her love of nature and life translated in her art. She was also an athlete, a swimmer with great acknowledgements to her sport. She was also a sister, a wife, a daughter, and greatest of all (I am working on my ego) a mother. She wasn't always around, and when she was it wasn't always pretty. However, I blissfully remember her love for animals, how she'd take any four legged furry animal under her wing and care for it as if it were her own. She also loved cooking and being of service for those she loved. I distinctly remember loving my moms Italian dressing and watching her in admiration as she whisked it into formation. She also really loved her only daughter, me, and even though I decided to cut our time together short in order to protect myself, I now know, in my heart, she loved me dearly. She did her best with this human life, and I choose to admire and adore the good times, the good qualities, and the pure goodness of her heart. So, detective, I ask you to join me in the admiration of those you have found and not known their full stories and to send their souls love and peace. For we may not know why they chose the path they did, but we can choose to lift them up and respect the good they gifted us while they were here.
This week, I went on vacation with 2 of my friends. I almost didn’t go because I was so worried about them making triggering comments about food and weight that would make it hard for me to eat (I have found that diet culture is an unfortunately common topic in the world of teenage girls). But I’m actually really glad I did, because it made me realize my disorder was lying to me when it told me that no other girls my age eat as much as me. Comparison can be dangerous when you’re in the depths of an ed, but since I am no where near as sick as I was, it was actually helpful in this case. This week made me realize that it is normal and necessary for teenage girls to eat a lot of food! This week, my friends what they wanted when they wanted on the trip, and both of them are perfectly happy and healthy. Eating will not hurt me either, and frick anorexia for telling me it will!
This is the reason I have bipolar. I was involved in some stupid stuff when I was younger. I got attacked, stabbed and hit over the head with a baseball bat one night. I had a major bleed on the brain and a long stay in hospital. This was almost 9 years ago. The fallout is still happening now. My moods changed and I was a different person. I have brain damage and bipolar due to that bight. I don't regret my past but you have to learn from it. That is how life works. You have to get back up when you fall down.
#bipolar#bipolardisorder #mentalhealth#mentalhealthawareness #recovery#manicdepression
,,Sei der, der du einmal warst bevor die Dinge passiert sind, die dich runter gezogen haben!" Ein Spruch der jeden von uns betrifft, egal wo wir vielleicht gerade im Leben stehen. Sei es jemand der sein ganzes Arbeitsleben noch vor sich hat, oder jemand der gerade mitten drin steht im Leben und sich fragt ,,Verdammt. Wie bin ich hier bloß rein geraten und wie komme ich hier wieder raus?" Die Antwort darauf ist simpel gesagt aber schwerer umzusetzen... Aber es stimmt, man sollte niemals seinen Glanz und das Strahlen in den Augen verlieren, welches uns authentisch macht.
Q: Wart ihr auch schon einmal an so einem Punkt im Leben wo ihr dachtet, es geht nicht mehr weiter?
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I’m trying to be as open as possible with my life at the moment as my part of #endthestigma and this letter is something I wrote in my notes on my phone to @billie_mjf and I thought I would share ❤️ My head gets foggy at times and I can’t see clearly, sometimes l say the wrong things or Im not the person I want to be for you.
I can come across as lazy when I’m struggling, I don’t do much and when I’m usually doing something it’s usually wrong, I say the wrong things a lot or I shut you out and I’m sorry.
I notice everything you do for me, I notice how my illnesses take it out of you, every anxiety attack I have drains you too, every low day makes you lower too and I use to think you didn’t need that in your life like you should just leave till I finally understood that you sticking by me and feeling what I was feeling is love and my god I love you so much it hurts.
I’m sorry I’m not perfect and I’m trying, every therapy I try every medication I take is in hope that I get better for you, my family.
Thank you for supporting me and never letting me go..
Thank you for believing me when I say I need help and putting me first on days I shouldn’t be.
Thank you for understanding why I cancel on plans or don’t feel up to seeing your friends.
Thank you for loving me unconditionally despite my demons.
Thank you for being you and loving me on days I can’t love myself. ❤️
‘Chicken & Chorizo Pizza Bagels’ 🍕
Probably the best pizza alternative I’ve ever had 🤤
Making pizza fit into your nutrition plan can be difficult for a lot of people, especially if you’re trying to cut calories or you just don’t have 1000+ calories to spare on a dominos!
This alternative ticks all the boxes for me!
Tastes amazing ✅
Lower in calories than most pizza ✅
High in protein ✅
Easy to make ✅
Trying to cut calories to lose body fat?
Try reducing the cheese and maybe swap the chorizo for sweetcorn/mushrooms!
Recovering from a tough session?
Have extra bagels, full size bagels, or even a full sized regular pizza base!
🍞 Tomato & Herb New York Bagel Thins (1 & 1/2 thins)
🍅 Tomato & Basil Sauce (90g)
🧀 Light Mozzarella Cheese (75g)
🧀 Kerry Low Low Cheese (45g)
🍗 Flame Grilled Chicken Fillets (75g)
🍖 Spicy Chorizo (6g
- Pre-heat the oven to 180 degrees celsius
- Place the your chosen toppings on your bagels
- Put the bagels on a thin pizza baking sheet and bake for 6-7 minutes - Enjoy 😋
I don’t know who needs to hear this today but felt lead to post it + leave it here... take care of yourself this weekend 💜✨
Posted at: 2019-07-20 21:23:17
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You are blessed with one life you cannot enjoy if you choose to be sedentary. It’s too easy to make excuses explaining why you can’t get off your ass...and the days roll by, and the bad habits multiply, and before you know it your health and wellness is at the bottom of your priorities, and you start to feel old. *
So this week I chose to wake up and get after it. I love how energized I feel with a mostly healthy diet and regular workout habit. It will be my 45th birthday in the next few months and I choose to be stronger and better than I’ve ever been before. I celebrate me today because I have been mostly consistent with making good choices this week and that’s just fantastic. Positive physical health = positive mental health. I’m on the up and up, watch me fly! ❤️
Posted at: 2019-07-20 07:07:57
Taking this moment to be brave and throw a little attention at some old work I made because today I’m 2 years sober and feel very strongly that I owe it to anyone and everyone who’s ever supported me and my work the reasons why I have gone fully silent with my art-making and social media posting.
Though I did make art, I mostly just used art (painting, fashion, photo)... I used it as my main weapon against the addiction, I used it to feel cool, for validation and approval, I used it to both hide and express my truest feelings in plain sight with bright colors, etc etc. ...but at a certain point it became very clear that paintings don’t hug you back or listen to you cry when you’re sad about some real ass shit.
And compliments only get you so far in life.
#I’m so grateful that the spirit of love worked through me to make this art back when I was in the thick of it because I don’t think I would have been able to admit later when it got really bad that I truly suffered from an “obsession”.. and one that can legit be fatal. Maybe some of you saw this work before and didn’t think much of it. Maybe some of you could tell I’m a raging alcoholic - I know when I made it I didn’t either at the time but it became very obvious in a moment of clarity overseas in Australia that I was fighting against an illness that was not in my own control.
I’m so thankful today for my life and the state it’s in- because 2 years ago all I wanted to be was a nonentity - I did not know it was possible to feel this good and at-ease in my own body and mind. Even if just for this moment. Thank you Australia and thank you to everyone I know and love and who’s shown me love since forever. Xox don’t worrry I still love to party. Just differently. Also if anyone wants to buy any of this old shit, please hit me up I wanna make some new work and would be thrilled to get rid of it! 🙏🏽✨🙏🏽 #art#recovery#fromthedarkside#tothebrightside#boozy#creations
Posted at: 2019-07-19 14:49:54
How do you measure your self worth?Is your measuring stick what you do and how well you do it? Is it how well you’re liked & who loves you back? Or is your measuring stick the size of your waist, the numbers on the scale, or the sum of your income?
When our self worth comes directly from these “external circumstances", the feelings we have about ourself can be all over the place. One day, we feel like we measure up and we’re solid. Then BOOM! The next day, it crashes & takes us down with it. 😳😤 But what if self worth didn’t live or die on our external circumstances? What if self worth rested on something much more secure, trustworthy, & healthy. What if your self worth came from your best beliefs about yourself? The kind of beliefs that have nothing to do with your relationship status, your appearance, popularity, achievement, how clean your house is or well behaved the kids are! ✊
It might be hard to imagine such a thing. After all, modern society tells us how important these external measuring sticks are AND having positive, healthy beliefs about yourself may be quite a challenge.
But what if your self worth DID come from a healthy belief about yourself? Imagine it? And while you’re at it, imagine your belief is so healthy & sturdy it shields you from those external circumstances. How would your feelings about yourself be different? DOUBLE TAP if you agree and TAG a friend who needs to be encouraged & reminded that they really do matter no matter what! 💕
PS- An important side note. External circumstances like our appearance, social life, relationships, job, etc.. they aren’t bad things. But they sure do make a bad foundation for our self worth. 👊
Posted at: 2019-07-18 15:52:48
"Agency is the technical term for the feeling of being in charge of your life: knowing where you stand, knowing that you have a say in what happens to you, knowing that you have some ability to shape your circumstances… Agency starts with what scientists call interoception, our awareness of our subtle sensory, body-based feelings: the greater that awareness, the greater our potential to control our lives. Knowing what we feel is the first step to knowing why we feel that way. If we are aware of the constant changes in our inner and outer environment, we can mobilize to manage them.” Quote From The Body Keeps The Score, page 97 ✨
Have you read The Body Keeps The Score by Dr. Bessel van der Kolk? It is a treasure filled with gems. It reveals how powerful the BIG and SMALL hurts/traumas of our life impact us. It also provides research and insight into effective therapies for healing. As a trauma informed therapist, this book fills me with hope.
If you wonder why you feel so overwhelmed with life. If you wonder why things seem so hard for you. If you find yourself in a loop of anxiety and depression, this book can give you a bigger perspective- on yourself, your life, your defenses, your strengths, where you’re stuck; and, most importantly, ways to help yourself heal and grow. 🌱
The Body Keeps The Score is one of my favorite books. It’s made for clients and clinicians; so it’s not too heavy on the jargon. Some of the case examples may be triggering; so read with care. However, the stories are illuminating and help paint a fuller picture of our survival instincts, resiliency, and the baggage we accumulate when we have parts of ourselves that need more healing and care. 💞
If you need to talk to someone or wonder how counseling can help you, give me a call! You can text or call me at 407-680-2912. I'm an EMDR trained licensed mental health counselor and If I’m not a good fit, I’ll help you find someone who is. In Orlando, we have a stellar community of awesome therapists. Someone who can help you feel safe and supported. ✌️✌🏽