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Song : Cuco - lover is a day
Posted at: 2019-12-11 16:35:18
All at one time.
When I was in Vegas recently for the HLTH conference advocating for mental health awareness, I wasn’t sleeping much there and hadn’t had much to eat that day. If you’ve ever been to a Vegas hotel too you might relate to the extreme over stimulation going on 24/7 in every direction.. yeah not my fav haha. Side note: for some reason when there is a lot going on around me I get so lost trying to “see it all” that I feel like my head spins (can u relate? ) anyways, back to my story. I was sitting there.. then I felt almost a warm tingly sensation run up and through my body. It is like a warming paralyzing feeling over your body, hard to explain but maybe you have this too with panic attacks. Anyways, I haven’t had a panic attack in almost 4 years but sometimes I get this “about to happen feeling”. I hadn’t felt that feeling in a long time, but it’s a captivating feeling if you’ve felt it before then I got a wave of nausea. I got up as fast as possible and went back to my room. When I got there i was able to not go into a panic attack with my coping tools. Point is, during that moment those feelings in this picture started happening. It’s hard to explain to people who have never had anxiety but it’s a scary feeling but remember JUST a feeling and you are stronger more resilient than any feeling. Nor are you alone in any of them.
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I'd feel selfish.
I'd feel selfish if I ever tell you.
You're a dream, I want you to be in my life, but who's to say you want me in yours? That... I even belong in yours?
You'd make me so happy, but... How do I know I'll make you happy?
I want to listen to you, look at you, talk to you, be with you and feel you. How could I think that I'm worth your senses?
What makes me think that it could ever happen? It will never happen. It can never happen.
You don't deserve to be with someone less. You deserve the world. I can't give it to you. I can't give you the world.
If I ever told you, I'd be embarrassed. Me? Hopelessly wishing that I'd ever be with a person like you? You're inspiring, enchanting... I want you to be happy, with a person as special as you. I can never be. I will never be.
So I'll just learn more about you by reading
horoscopes and I'll watch you grow and live through pictures you post in your most cherished moments. Forever ache when I see your name in any context. What you don't know won't hurt you. You're protected. You're moving up.
Every breath burned when I forced myself to see you again and make myself accept that I could never ask for a chance. It only made me hurt more. My insides are sore. Why can't I be what you want?
Why can't I be what you want.
I love you. You truly are a gift. Just not mine.
I love you. I'm so sorry I love you.